(you know things are rough when you can come up with 2 “poems” in 24 hours):


In between a 2 year and a 73 year old

A husband

A job




The lonely only

Attempting to care-take

Miles away from one

Too close to the other


Focus is blurry

Concentration gone

Priorities scattered

Rationality and sanity illusive


Love for both & all

Want to heal the sick

Comfort the sadness

Make it all go away







Smaller than a drinking straw

They are not even as wide as a drinking straw

1-2cm at most

How can new life pass through them?

I am still baffled by reproductive anatomy

And in awe of the miracle that occurs


It is the 4th one

December 2006

October 2007

April 2012

July 2013


The 1st traumatic

The 2nd just shock & more questions

The 3rd physically painful and emotionally numb

The 4th the longest loss ever…2 weeks and counting

“Just take them out”


My faith is shaken

1 friend truly understands, others try

“Keep trying”


“Pray” they all say


What next?

1 miracle lives & brings continuous joy

But there is still a longing…

Still lots of questions…

And no real good answers of why

Thougtful Thursday July 11, 2013

Don’t have much of my own to say today, so I’m sharing what I’m reading & watching today in the news, on my favorite blogs, etc:

  1. The Katie Couric Show is celebrating Title IX with LOTS of awesome guests, including Venus Williams, Robin Robers, Hannah Storm:
  2. One of the bloggers I follow posted a thoughtful commentary on the #Zimmerman trial as it relates to being a mom of a boy of African descent:
  3. The last two blogs from the American Association of University Women (AAUW) speak to me, one on preschool and one on women’s wages: and
  4. It was Mary Mcleod Bethune’s birthday yesterday:
  5. And….more women going into space:
  6. What I’m doing this weekend: WGBH Fun Fest, Lowell Cup Soccer, Block Party in Lowell Common


Going “G-Free:” The Karagöz puppets freak at the idea of gluten-free bread

This is an issue I have been exploring given my long history with eczema and my son’s diagnosis with asthma and his reoccurring eczema. Gluten-free is difficult I understand….


It is an understatement to say that I have always loved bread. The one thing I can remember most about growing up, especially in my maternal grandparents house, was that bread and butter were to be served at every meal…not to mention snacktime as well. (I can hear Karagöz saying “damn straight!” which means he’s picked up the somewhat sarcastic Yankee-ism meaning “that’s right!”).

As a child, I can remember cutting thick slices of Italian bread with the red painted serated knife, and using the same knife to slather that bread with wavy coverings of ricotta cheese that I then adorned with green olives pushed into the slushy cheese. I would devour my odd creations right there on the cool gray marble top of the pantry in the afternoon when all were napping as hot July wins blew around Granny’s house.

This was my favorite secret snack – WAY…

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Meaningful Mondays #2: Adoption in Black and White

From NPR story (link below): “The cost to adopt the Caucasian child was approximately $35,000, plus some legal expenses. “Versus when we got the first phone call about a little girl, a full African-American girl, it was about $18,000,” Lantz says. The cost for adoption of a biracial child was between $24,000 and $26,000.”

My mom’s life work was caring for children. As a social worker she was a child welfare advocate. She often bucked the system and did things not the way the state of Cali wanted her to do them, but they way in which she knew would be best for the welfare of the students.  She was amazing to watch. She walked the walk and talked the talk of child welfare and protection. I would have followed in her footsteps, but social work called me in another direction. She would take any child, of any race, ethnicity, ability, etc. regardless of cost. AND she knew fully that some children would live in her groups homes longer than others because of his/her race or ability.

Adoption and foster care often carries a stigma by those who do not understand the needs of children and families.  I feel this NPR story may add to the difficulties and misunderstandings people have about adoption and foster care.  The NPR story is not shocking to me, but may be to some.  It is difficult to place children with disabilities, severe behavior problems, and non-Caucasian children in loving and caring homes.  With the latter there is the debate about whether children of color should only be placed with families of the same race and ethnicity….

There are many U.S. children who are in need of a loving home. I hope this story does not turn adoption into some stigmatized affirmative action program in which people take pity on children of oclor or only adopt African American kids because the cost is lowest (in some states).  I hope people adopt and foster because they have enough love, room, and resources to welcome a child or children into their homes.

I hope the NPR story (and the continuing NPR series on Race, helps to bring awareness of the needs of individuals, families, and especially children of color.

Get informed: National Adoption Day